Just a mirage??

‘Dil ki dhakano ko dhadka gaya koe… mere khwabo ko mehka gaya koe…
Hum toh anjane rasto pe chal rahe the… pyar ka matlab sikha gaya koe…’
I don’t know when our friendship grew into love… don’t remember how life was without him being a part of it… he makes me feel so beautiful and complete… brings out a side of me I never knew existed… he has given me so much love, so many beautiful moments to cherish and together we’ve lived a dream, filled with moments we hope to share in the future… we’ve built a world which feels more real than the one I live in today…
I’m very scared of it all ending… I don’t know why I’m so insecure… I guess it’s because this relationship means a lot to me… I haven’t seen him in ten months now… feel like so much is left unsaid… so much left unexpressed… I am missing him like crazy… and this distance is killing! Feeling emotionally drained and he isn’t making it any simpler… I guess sometimes people hurt you without even realizing it… just unintentionally…

… at times I feel like I’m shuttling between reality and what might be just a mirage…